Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, Have mercy on me, A sinner.
I keep finding myself saying this prayer over and over today. God has been so good to my family and I. I tend to take His love for granted, all without realizing how inconsiderate and selfish I am. There can be no doubt, I need to pray more, and keep my eyes focused on Him.
I get so wrapped up in my own “earthly” problems, that I forget just how good we all have things here in the USA. I woke up this morning feeling depressed and very angry. But, after reflecting on my trivial issues, they seem insignificant compared to what millions of others face on a daily basis. The “storms” that I face, really, just aren’t that bad. Yet, they consume my thoughts and affect the way I live my life. And in the process, I end up taking my eyes off of Jesus. Think about St. Peter and reflect on what happened to him when he took his eyes off of Christ and looked instead at the storm surrounding him…
22 Then he made the disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. 23 And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up into the hills by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, 24 but the boat by this time was many furlongs distant from the land,[a] beaten by the waves; for the wind was against them. 25 And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. 26 But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, saying, “It is a ghost!” And they cried out for fear. 27 But immediately he spoke to them, saying, “Take heart, it is I; have no fear.”
28 And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, bid me come to you on the water.” 29 He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus; 30 but when he saw the wind,[b] he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” 31 Jesus immediately reached out his hand and caught him, saying to him, “O man of little faith, why did you doubt?” 32 And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. 33 And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”[c]
Our Lord could have stopped the storm, and had all of them walk out of the boat. But, he didn’t, and only Peter exhibited the courage to venture out into the waves. I wonder if I would have been brave enough to try that? If so, would I have been able to keep my focus on Jesus instead of the storm? Well, based on my lack of prayer lately, and selfish interests, I would have failed and probably stayed cowering in the boat with the others.
Psalms 51: 10-12
10 Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and put a new and right[c] spirit within me.
11 Cast me not away from thy presence,
and take not thy holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of thy salvation,
and uphold me with a willing spirit.
Again, I need to pray the Jesus prayer, and focus my vision on Him. Everything else in this world will just fall right into place.